Hello, my name is Ruby, I am being brave and part desperate because I need prayers. So here is a small part of my story. IDK where I was born let alone what date or year. I am mixed ethnicities and lived in India for a little while. When I was very little, I saw my father killed, the day that changed everything. My mother married someone else very quickly after my fathers death, why? IDK I have few ideas, being a woman in a 3rd world country, with no education and left with 3 children maybe this is what she thought was best. The person she married was not a man of God. He did very dark things to me, including setting me on fire..which later ended up with my mother giving me up for adoption. In that orphanage, I was breaking all over again. I cried nonstop waited for her and my brother to come back but they never came. During that time, the nun won my trust and she told me about this God and how He loves me. I experienced something supernatural that very moment. I was later adopted by Americans. But they were abusive not even a year in, when I say abusive, Im not talking about spankings or even a few slaps, but very hard beatings that left me with permanent damage. (I forgave them, best decision ever) I went to college with everyone laughing at me calling me dumb. I had a dream but I was too afraid to do it then and I figured if I became a nurse, Id always have a job and Id never be homeless. That was a fear, because I was homeless, and I know what its like to be starved for weeks...I became an RN but I didn't feel I was walking in my purpose, I love to help people. I went back to college and got another degree with again professors everyone calling me dumb and saying I wouldn't pass. I prayed like crazy..and I passed... That year God told me I was going to be moving and He told me this one time before. I just didn't know it was going to be that far. I didnt have a job part of the time last year and finally got one and it sent me to Cali (which I didn't want to go) I obeyed and went. The job was definitely not what you would call a good environment and now its been 6 months without a job. I'm not perfect, Im far from perfect yet I didn't do the typical partying, smoking, drugs anything like that. I am going through a hard time, hard enough where I am being open with some of my darkest points of my life. I still have no family, no home and not even a job. I don't understand why bad things keep happening. I keep praying and asking and reading my Bible, I watch sermons daily because otherwise I would fall into deep despair. IDK what else to do...I keep telling myself "God didn't save you from all that hell for this, my story cant end here". I'm out of ideas, IDK what to do but to come on the internet and ask for prayers because there is power in prayer. I hope someone reads this and prayers be lifted up. I thank you to whomever does read this and for your prayers. God bless you.